BlaireRoper.com

Monday, March 29, 2010

Over the past few weeks I have come to understand that it is ok to hate someone if you do it in the name the lord or in gods name. Also that man can say that God hates someone if them use a church to do it.

I have not understand this, I not sure I still under stand this. The church I grow up in told me I must love everyone, Love thought that hate me. To forgive all that did me wrong. That only the lord can judge me for what I do in my life. I hear the God loves me and that the lord give his life for all man kind. Not just the ones that going to church, but all man kind. The lord gave his life for all of us, he asked to not sin and he is the only one who can judge because he gave has life.

Please understand that you can not save me, nor did I ask any of you to do that. I am a big person and I under stand that I will be judge by the Lord. the question is do you? I still love you, when someone hurt me I end up loving them more. I do not have hate in my heart, I only have room for love. If you think I am living wrong let the Lord take care of that, he may know my heart better then you do. I trust the Lord with all that I have and with my life. You may not believe that but I do not care if you do.

If you want nothing to do with me that is up to you and I will not ask you to change. So please do not think you have the right to tell me how to live my life, any more then I do you.

If you feel that you have God on your side maybe you should ask your self does god take side. I know that I never have god on my self if I take away someone choses and never will I have him when I hate. Where hate is God is not. Yes I will haft to pay the price for how I lived my life. But that is for me to do no one can do that for me.

Please do not think you are helping, it is not your place, that is for God and the lord. If you love me then do just that love me for who I am, not for what you think or want me to be.

I love my family no matter what, no matter what is said or done I will always love them.
Love is a hard thing, if I can still love someone no matter what. That is what I see the Lord did for me and for all man kind. It is so much harder to Love then to hate.

This month so far has been so much more then I could have hoped for. I have stepped out of my safe place, I put my self out for the world to see. I am still here after doing this and wow the changes that I have seen in my self. I would have never believed I feel like I have the past 3 weeks. Then their is all the people I have met and got to know just a little bit. I know that the young people coming out of school are wanting to make the world a better place and I believe that they will.

I was asked If I wanted to and would I do a small part in a show at Westminster College. I feel I must say that I took many hours to think about if I should or could. My health is not what it was last year and does not look like it is going to get better. I have come to understand that is just the way it is and I am trying to make the best of it. So with that in mind I had to think what the cost to me would be, with the drive and the hours. But something inside of me said you need to do this, I try to listen to that voice when it comes, But in my mind I could not see how I would do it. So I said yes, that first meeting with the cast touched me, it touched my heart and My good friends heart. She to was asked to do a part, she said yes.

This cast came from many ages and back grounds, but came together for this show. I had wanted to do this show for a few years now but never felt that I would. I guess I did not feel I had the right to ask to be a part or that I was an outsider. Their are so many things in this life we must work for or try to become, but many times we do not get there or become because we stop or because others tell us we can not, that it is wrong and will do what they can to keep us from it.

That is something that changed for me in this show, I know I am the only one that can or will stop me any more. Yes people will try to stand in my way, but I can and will just go around them. I am happy and I believe in me, some may say that is wrong but I say why, how can that be. If I had believe in my self sooner maybe I could help others more. Next month will be 14 years that I have lived, after being told that I may have 6 months to a year to live because of Cancer.

The day I was told that I had Cancer I can remember all things I did not think I could do with my life ie ( seeing my kids grow up ) and much more. I am so thankful that I was given the gift of the last 14 years. I have at this time moved forward and done so many things like seeing my kids grow up and so much more. I am who I am in part because of my past, but more because of who i want to be. Having Cancer has shown me that if I wanted to do things it was up to me.

I guess that is part of what I saw in the women of this cast, that they can do what ever they set their minds to. They all worked hard at the parts they had in the show and moved forward. They give me hope. They took the whole person that is who I am and said that they cared. They saw more in me then I did at times. I am so blessed to have been around them. I guess that we us gave of ourselves not wanting any more then to do a great show. Wow they did give a great show, they moved me. It is not what you get in life it is what you can give!

Happy Birthday Alex, Karla, Shelby, Teresa, Tony & Robert. We love you and hope that you each have an awesome day.

Last Month is gone and October is here….
Trey, Kooper , Kyleigh and Kolton all had birthdays in September. I hope they were all very wonderful and you got everything you wanted. Trey turned really old and hopefully has many wonderful adventures coming his way.
Happy October Birthday Russ – you are getting really old now. Happy Birthday Dad – we know you are old! :-) Happy Birthday Tamera – I am 29 yet again! It is wonderful to be 29. I hope to stay that way for many years yet to come. Happy Birthday Ammon – Oh the experiences in life yet to enjoy!

Well now for the anniversaries – Happy Anniversay! Tony & Trish Tracy & Elizabeth

RAY & VICKI and MARV & ESTHER – WOW – what a lot of years, what a lot of memories, what a lot of kids…. Many grandkids and many happy memories.

Fall has come and everyone is surviving. One day at a time! It isn’t easy, but it is oh so worth it. I hope that has we start to bring this year to a close and look forward to the holidays. We will remember the many things we are thankful for – the blessings we have received, the lives saved, the time sacrificed and the family and friends who have loved us and we have loved.

I love the month of October – the leaves change, the weather is cooler and so the sun feels good. People begin to think of the holidays and giving.

Conference happens and we get to have much spiritual revelation. As always the talks were directed towards me and how I should live. More love, kindness, understanding of family, friends and even those we don’t know, More acceptance of others. Treat others kindly! Follow the commandments! love one another! Pay your tithing! Be kind, Be virtuous, LOVE one another, treat others kindly…..
I think of one of the things I learned from my dad. If have something, you have more than someone else and you should always share what you have. I learned from my mom you should always hug everyone. I have learned from my parents that if you are kind to others – you will always have friends. It doesn’t matter if they treat you nice and many times people don’t. But there are those people that will be kind back and hopefully will be your friends, but you still have to be kind to everyone even if they are mean including those of your family.

I love my family and I don’t tell them often, but I want all my brothers and sisters (Laura, Theron, Teresa, Tracy, Elizabeth, Tony, Trish, Robert, Karla, Jodi, Russell, James, Amy, Sandra, Joe, Shawna, Amber) that I love them. I want my parents to know I love them and Blaires parents and also my nieces and nephews how much I appreciate each and everyone of them. I love my kids (Randy, Jenn, Ross, Sarah and Jessica)!!!! I love my grandkids!!!! and I love all the Pets too. My aunts and uncles are all awesome and should know they fill many portions of my heart. My cousins and I have many all have a special place. There are also many others who have come in our family and I love them all. I do love Blaires brothers and sisters too even though they would rather not be a part of our lives. I hope someday that will change and they will want to be a part of our lives.

I hope as October progresses and we come to the end of the month, you will all have a Happy Halloween. As always, love me

I have been working with dad for some time now on a family history. Well we have now done a DVD “Ancestors of Ross E Roper & Lacy L Jones”. Their is many history on this DVD but If their are any more we would like to find them, so we can add to this. Dad is now making DVD’s and will be sending them out. One can call him if your not sure if you are on the list. This DVD will run on both Windows and Mac OS X, their is a mac only copy if any one wants it.

Dad is also working other parts of the family, he felt that it would be best to put it out in parts IE Roper, Hansen, Arndt. Remember any one that may have Info, photos or Written History please send copies to Dad or my self.